Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Dear Mother

Dear Mother,

Happy Mother's Day! Sunday was such an exciting day - Sarah's first Mother's Day! Ayla is due in 9 weeks! Plus, Sarah's Baby Shower was Saturday and she is just "over the moon!" How we wish you were here to be a part of this grand event! And the upcoming birth of Matt and Susan's little Sawyer. Sarah has 9 weeks left and Susan has 9 days left!

Saturday morning I was in a nostalgic mood and went upstairs to dig through my box of treasures...things I found and kept after you and Daddy passed away...things I find myself drawn to from time to time when I am especially missing you both. Your smell is in that box. You and Daddy are in that box. MY LIFE is in that box! I love going through it and remembering the story or the event behind the treasures I kept. Below you will find just a few of the things I hold near and dear to my heart, especially on this sweet weekend...Sarah's first baby shower and the day before Mother's Day. I just wanted to share them with you. I miss you and Daddy so much! Happy Mother's Day! I hope you enjoy this little trip down Memory Lane...

Your Baby PictureYour Wedding Picture


So many stories, so many memories, so many treasures, so many adventures
all tucked away in this plastic box. I need to buy a really special trunk to store all these treasures in. They are far too precious for a Dollar Store plastic tub!
My Box of Treasures

Wow...the emotions that came flooding in when I picked these up! I put your rain bonnet up to my face, breathed in your fragrance...and just burst into tears. It was like I was hugging you right then and there. Your 'scent' was so strong in that moment, it was as if I had you back for a brief second. It was the same when I picked up Daddy's yardwork hat. The only difference was, I laughed through my tears because of the way he always cut little diamond-shaped holes in the top of his hat so his "head could breathe". My goodness, I love that man! He was so funny! Oh the sweet, precious memories!
Just a Few of Your Many Sewing Boxes
Your Mother's Bible. I had no idea she and I shared
a deep love for the same scripture!Daddy kept his pennies on top of his dresser in this
shaving cream cup for as long as I can remember.Daddy's Cotton - he had this for years, but I
don't remember where he picked it.
Back in the day, I was a Modge Podge wizard! Being young, married and on a tight budget, I often made your gifts instead of buying them. These boxes were Christmas presents (I think) from at least 35 years ago. How sweet that you kept them on your dressers for all of these years.

Your Bible...just as you carried it to church for the last time - with your candy, kleen-ex and Dr. Pepper lip gloss still in it.

After Daddy was diagnosed with lung cancer, I made these for each of you...just as a reminder that God was ever present in your time of need. Little did we know that you would be diagnosed with cancer too, just 8 months after losing Daddy. I should have made myself one of these!

You were Super Woman! You worked a full-time job at the County Health Dept., came home and cooked dinner, attended all of the ballgames and various activities of mine, Harold's and Craig's, did the household chores, ran a taxi service for all of us, and still managed to sew almost all of my clothes. Often you would stay up until 1 or 2 a.m. to sew after we were all in bed. It wasn't until I was in my twenties that I finally understood and appreciated all you did. I made this for you one Mother's Day with a note of thanks for those tireless hours of sewing your heart out for me...this is you at your sewing machine just happily working away! Thank you for treasuring this little gift of appreciation and hanging it above your sewing machine for all those years. A Special Place for Your Sewing Plaque and Your Baby DollWhen you died, I purchased two of these and placed the pictures in them. You wore one to "take with you" that day and I wore the other one that day
...forever connected.

You saved one of my baby blankets and a little quilt Mamaw made for me! Maybe Ayla can use them!

...and last but not least

My Favorite Picture of You and Daddy

I will forever miss and love you both! I hope your Mother's Day in Heaven was special!


"She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed..." Proverbs 31:25-28

Monday, December 7, 2009

Up In The Attic

How many of you remember Amy Grant's "A Christmas Album"? It was one of my favorite Christmas albums of all time. Two songs stood out above all the rest - "Tennessee Christmas" and "Heirlooms". Matt and Sarah grew up listening to that album every year as we decorated the tree...just one of our die hard family traditions!

Now let's be honest...how many of you have cried as you listened to "Heirlooms"? I can still remember listening to it, trying to imagine what that must feel like - to be up in the attic, going through boxes of old things from generations past. I could "feel" the emotions it must resurrect, even though I never had an attic and had not experienced that activity myself.

Well, guess what? I still don't have an old attic, but I have boxes of things from generations past in a big closet upstairs...things I discovered, memories I wanted to hang onto, treasures I kept after my parents passed away. The song is very true - "some bringing laughter, some bringing tears." My dad passed away in January 2007 and my mother passed away in June 2008...not so long ago. But, I already go into that closet ever so often and pull things out of the boxes - now understanding the song in a way I never did before. I even have an article of clothing belonging to each of them in separate Ziploc bags. I open them up once in a while just to breathe in their "smell". That's always a "some bringing tears" moment. Finding the head of a hammer with a broken, splintered, hint of a handle left is a "some bringing laughter" moment...at Daddy's insistence that every little thing must be saved in case there was somehow a dire need for it in the future. (everyone needs at least one broken hammer at some point in their lives)

A few weeks ago, I was in "that mood" and I spent a little time in that closet, going through some things. I ran across an old VHS tape. Whoa...memories! In 1996, I purchased a CD called Sisters: Songs of Friendship, Joy & Encouragement for Women. It was a collection of songs by various artists, celebrating and embracing women, friendships, and relationships. On it was a song by Bonnie Keen/Tori Taff, "These Are the Women We Come From", which I immediately fell in love with. It was prefaced by a beautiful monologue, "Quilting", by Amy Gaither-Hayes. These two pieces really touched my heart and my wheels began turning. "Living pictures" began forming in my mind, which is what I've always done when I hear music...I create in my mind a story or video, if you will, to go along with it. Mother's Day was approaching, and I knew in my heart that God had given me these two incredible pieces for a reason. I met with our church's audio/visual tech, Todd Sanders, (one of the kindest, most talented men I know...and father of one of the girls in my vocal group) and asked if he would be interested in helping me put this together. We boldly went where neither one of us had ever gone before. After many hours of contacting all artists involved to obtain permission to use their material, and using clips of a Civil War re-enactment video, this video tribute to the "women we come from" was born. It was particularly a tribute to the mothers of my women's vocal group, Voices of Praise. We had so much fun doing this! Todd had a little studio behind his office, so we were able to pre-record the song. Then we loaded up and took a boom box with us to Petit Jean State Park, where we taped the video with no audio, but singing with our boom box. I'm sure visitors to the park thought we were nuts. Todd then put it all together in his studio. He is a true genius, as this was way less than "music video" technology. He did a fantastic job! Thank you Todd! It was such a great surprise to our mothers, as we had kept it all very secret.

Anyway, back to the closet - now I am sitting here, holding my mother's copy in my hands...powerful emotions rising up! Since VHS tapes are nearly obsolete now, I had this transferred to a DVD. (thank you Tommy May) To make this share-able, (is that a word?) I had to convert it to yet another mode - thus the less than perfect quality of this video. You can't imagine the memories this brings up. First of all, to be able to pay tribute to the "women we came from", especially now that so many of them have gone on to be with the Lord. I can hardly believe this was 13 years ago!

This is not to boast or brag over. We are really not great vocalists...well, the first one is! (Remember, this was for our own Mommies) I just wanted to share with you something deeply moving to me - I guess because the holiday season is kind of a bittersweet time for me now, with both of my parents gone.

But, it is also a very special Christmas this year because God has truly given us a miracle in Sarah's pregnancy! Praise God for He is faithful! And with Matt and Susan expecting too, it is quite an emotional season for us all! Please know that those of you out there who are still waiting for your "miracle" - my prayers go faithfully with you! God will be faithful to you too, in His time and in His will. Do not give up hope! And when you are hurting and feeling hopeless -reach deep down inside...Hopefully it will draw you nearer to God and to the "women YOU come from."

(don't forget to pause the playlist music at the bottom of the page and after you click on the video, pause it to let it download just a few minutes...its just not the same with all the stopping, and skipping, etc.)

THESE ARE THE WOMEN WE COME FROM

Thank you Lord, for the strong, wonderful, amazing women I came from! I have been truly blessed! Mother, I love you and miss you so very much!