Monday, February 22, 2010
My only disappointment is that they only had two - one for Natalie and one for Parker. I'll be checking other Dollar Stores for this fabulous deal! I need at least two more...one for Sarah and one for myself!
Friday, February 19, 2010
We're on our way to Sarah and Stu's "Gender Reveal Party"! We can't wait!!!
Boy or Girl Decor
Almost Time to Tell!
Daddy's Girl (and Scrappy)
What's It Going To Be?Team Pink!Team Blue!The Big Reveal!
What a great time! Ayla Faith Creamer will be here before we know it!
So - Rick and Stuart, here's to your birthdays! Could you possibly want anything else besides a healthy baby....GIRL!!!
I could ask for no better husband and no better son-in-law! Love you both and I thank God for the double blessing!
HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Your birthday is almost here. Monday is just around the corner! I'm guessing you want your usual favorite - chocolate cake with our "secret" frosting and home made banana ice cream. Perhaps the angels will indulge you with your birthday wishes!
This is certainly not what I had in mind for your 81st birthday. We would have gone to dinner and a movie. I would have had everyone come over for cake and ice cream. We would have celebrated yours, Rick's and Stuart's birthdays together and laughed at the warped cards we all bought for the three of you! I confess, in my selfishness I want you here so badly I can hardly stand it sometimes, but I know God's plan is much bigger than mine. Still, I struggle to make sense of how and why...
Do you know how many letters I have written to you in the past 20 months? I've shared with you everything - from my grief, my guilt, my sorrows, my regrets, and my fears - to my secrets, my joys, and my funnies.
I want you to know that I am working through the grief I still deal with. I know you would not want any of us hanging onto that. For the most part I do pretty well, but never a day goes by that I don't have a "moment" and struggle a bit. My dreams about you remain consistent, though not frequent - I see you, but I know that you are not really there. I try to reach out and touch you anyway...surprised that I actually can! I throw my arms around you and begin sobbing, telling you that I just don't think I can do this. I beg you to come back. We cry together and you tell me that I am strong and I will be OK. And then I wake up with empty arms and teary eyes.
A psychologist or dream analyst could probably have a "field day" with that one! :-)
June 21, 2008 seems like yesterday to me. That Saturday morning is just as vivid in my mind and heart now as it was then...the day you slipped out of our lives and into Glory. So bittersweet. Avalon's "Where Joy and Sorrow Meet" truly sums it up.
On a happier note, I do have a WONDERFUL gift for your birthday! You probably already know. (unless God has allowed me to be the one to tell you and Daddy) SARAH IS EXPECTING A GIRL! We just found out! How we wish that you were here to experience this miracle pregnancy with us! I asked God to keep you updated and give you glimpses of our upcoming joys - Matt and Susan's, Sawyer Linton Millsap and Stuart and Sarah's, Ayla Faith Creamer! Though you won't be here in the flesh to hold these precious new babies, I will rest in knowing that you will hold them in your heart! And rest assured, these children will know you...
Loving and missing you! Happy Birthday! Hugs to Daddy!
p.s. You would be so proud of Sarah. She has shown so much "Grammie moxie" and spiritual growth these couple of years. Your legacy continues...Ayla Faith will also carry on your amazing spirit!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
Saturday, February 6, 2010
I am reminded of one of my favorite passages in Scripture - 1 Kings 19, where the Lord appeared to Elijah. I know I have shared this passage with you before, but indulge me please -
11 The Lord said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by."
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper.
How often we miss those gentle whispers.
Last week we experienced the elements of winter...all at once! First the cold rain came, pounding on the roof, windows and pavement. Then the rain turned to sleet, hitting the ground and the windows with a crackling, clicking sound that was light, but ominous at the same time. Finally, the sleet turned to snow...the gentle whisper; the beautiful blanket of white. I love listening to the snow. Have you ever listened to the snow falling? You can hear it, but only if you try very hard, tuning out everything else, standing completely still, straining your ears to hear that quiet little....poof....as the snowflake lands softly on its mark. I think maybe that's the way we should listen to God too. Sometimes the hardest thing for me is to just...be.
* My Winter Wonderland *
Snotty DeerCrystal TreeIcy View
TreeciclesHeavy on the Ice
Ice BerriesFrozen TreeBuddy and I Get Ready to Explore the Snow Pretty View Buddy's Snow Face
Add 1 Heaping Magnolia Leaf...
Icy/Snowy Pine Needles
Icy Trees Shimmer in the Sun
Mystery Tracks Turkey Tracks...ssshhh (on our property)
Deer Tracks...ssshhh (ditto) The Frog Pond